Struggle

Unzip this skin and leave me bare
Naked and cold
Locked in the depths of despair.

Watch as they pass by me with a jubilant stare.
I should charge you admission for that glare.

But you turn to me with that halfhearted smile, pity
and disgust in your eyes. I hear the snicker as you walk on by.
Don't you know I see through the facade with tears in my eye?

I want to scream at you and let you know that I'm just like you!
I laugh, I cry and I love deeply...maybe even more than you.

But you will never see me the way I see you. I'm only seen for my body
that fits perfectly in a zoo. So walk away and be thankful you don't
have to carry the weight of so many who ridicule you.

In the Mirror

She looks familiar to me.
A close resemblance to who I used to be.

Maybe a few years older with a touch of gray.
All so familiar except the emptiness her smile
fails to hide away.

Break Me

Break Me

Trace your finger against my surface.

And feel how the smooth grain slides velvet against your skin.

As your fingers continue to explore my texture, your eyes begin to close.

Relishing the softness, your touch begins to exploit me.

Evidence of the rough underneath begins to form on your fingertips.

And your eyes widen to the blood outlining the remnants of your lies.

Flinching, you recognize the jagged surface you have unveiled.

Your head lowers before your eyes lift to meet mine.

Though the cracks you’ve uncovered may be many

Know that you failed to completely break me. 

Cherish

Cherishing every year we share, I

Hold you close each day and

Reach for another moment where

I can turn each minute into a

Sacred memory for us to share.

And when we grow old, I’ll

Never look back and regret any

Day spent loving you.

Always know that you have

Made me whole and that it’s

You who has given me the reason to breathe.

                                                --A

Forever

Run away with me to the place

Inside my heart, where I

Cling to your dripping chest that’s

Kissed with sweat from the love we made.

And when I gently run my

Nails across your chest, know that my

Desire for you burns deep inside.

Kiss me feverishly, pull me gently

Into your loving arms and caress

My face as I look lovingly into your eyes.

                                                   --A

Gone

Gone

Why did you go?
Why can't you stay?
Its questions like these
that I face each day.

One moment you're here
the next you're gone, I didn't
see it coming, but I feared
it all along.

I miss you each day,
I search for your face
it used to warm and protect
this place.

But now you're gone and
nothing is the same, except
the wail from my heart
yearning for one more day.

The Road

Silent screams fall on deaf ears

while reaching for you.

She is engulfed in the void

that has replaced miles

trodden down a one way street.

A fork in the road leaves you

left with which way to take.

Reminders of you falling down

her face, as you leave your love

stranded in this desolate place.

She's crawling on skinned knees,

with yearning hands, reaching for you

as you turn and leave her

lost and alone

consumed with regret

living without you

in a past she can't forget.